La Vie Est Belle

Firstly let me tell you one thing or two about this picture.
This picture was taken by me with my Samsung phone (if I'm not mistaken) about 4 years ago, when I was on my way for a job interview in the capital. I was in a travel bus and there was a traffic jam. Then I saw these plants hanging beside an overpass. Knowing Jakarta, the city full of pollution and traffic jams and short-tempered people, looking at these plants is somehow relaxing. So I took a snap of them and edited it later with Rhonna Design (again, if I'm not mistaken).

大丈夫の？

Right now I have mixed feelings about life.

Putting aside my problems that somehow could make me sleep all day and cry all night, I am thinking about my little brother who is now thinking of leaving his study.

Someday you will look back and know exactly why it had to happen

I'm currently in the mood for writing a letter to my 28-year old-self. I want my future self to remember these time of my life; a moment they called quarter-life crisis.
How will life be in 5 years? How will people I love be? How will I see myself and my future self be?

It's exciting yet thrilling. I know that life is hell of a mystery; one day it could bring happiness and the other day it could bring sadness. It can't be helped that I'm honestly scared if my life will not be long enough to make something good for my loved ones, but I'm more scared if theirs neither. We could never anticipate it, right? It scares me to the bone.

But then again, I still want to ask a lot of things for my future self and remind her to always make the best of everything that come her way.

Dear future self, always have fun where ever you are :)