Life, right?

I've actually have thought about this for a while; a realisation that no matter what phase is in our life, we're constantly need to work hard on it.

When I was in Japan doing internship last year, I was so happy to finally be able to work, even if it's just for a while, in a dream country. But the happiness didn't last long, I have to constantly learning to be better each day I was there: I have to be really woken up in the cold winter morning to rush downtown and catch train that'll take me to work. In Indonesia, I could easily call online driver to take me to work with minimum fare, but that option's not available in Japan. Also, I have to constantly learn the Japanese workplace culture, and my own job as well. I enjoyed my stay there, but now that I think about it, I might not suitable to that kind of job and workplace, so it might be a good thing I didn't accepted to work full-time there.

These days, I came to that realisation again. I thought I was so blessed that I could work in one fast-growing startup despite me lacking the experience and only did learn coding for three months. But after working about six months and seeing the reality of Software Engineer work, my confidence is decreased day by day.

Aku?

Beberapa waktu yang lalu saya pernah mem-publish sebuah post, dimana saya mengatakan bahwa saya ingin pergi ke sebuah tempat baru; berkenalan dengan orang-orang baru, melihat dengan perspektif baru.

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Guess what? It was granted.

Sebenarnya ketika saya mengetik post itu, saya berharap akan diterima kerja di Jepang. Tapi ternyata doa saya dikabulkan dengan skenario lain.

Dear me,

How are you these days?
Is life being difficult once again?
You thought you were shattered once when your dreams are crushed right before you.
You thought the world is not fair when you are struggling to get a decent job.
You thought it was hard getting over break-ups.
But you overcame that. And you got stronger.