(kembali) Ke Jalan yang Benar

Tria kesambet?

Nggak, Alhamdulillah, cuma lagi berusaha untuk jadi pribadi yg lebih baik *senyummanis*


Kamu pernah ngerasain turning point dalam hidupmu? Misalnya tiba-tiba kamu kelupaan sama mantan pacar yg dulu ga pernah absen dipikirin tiap hari gitu. Saat itu seperti kayaknya kamu terpikir "loh tumben gue ga mikirin dia? ah yaudahlah bodo amat~"

Okelah itu bukan contoh yg bener, tapi intinya adalah kadang hidup lu 'dibelokkan' ke jalan yg bener sama Yang Maha Kuasa, sadar atau gak sadar elunya. Salah satu cara Tuhan 'membelokkan' hidup lu (maaf ya Tuhan ini bukan sok tau kok, tapi Insya Allah bener da ya :") adalah dengan memberi lu cobaan. Cobaan itu berbagai macam loh, jangan kira lu dicoba dengan kesakitan dan kemiskinan doang, lu tajir populer bisa beli iphone 6plus ato lo cantik banyak yang naksir (?) itu juga cobaan, cuma iya lebih enak aja keliatannya.

Nah, back to topic, kalau seseorang sadar dirinya lagi dicoba dan diuji dan akhirnya dia jadi pribadi yg lebih baik, biasanya hal itulah yg akan disebut dengan 'hidayah'.

Jadi, menurut gue nih ya, hidayah mah datengnya tiap hari da di kehidupan. Tinggal manusianya aja yg mau nangkep apa nggak.



Jadi intinya apa Tri?

Intinya, gue baru 'sadar' kalau dengan cobaan-cobaan yang diberikan Allah satu tahun kebelakang ini, gue ini sedang 'dibelokkan' arah. Awalnya gue juga mikir, sumpah Tuhan sadis banget sih sama gue, da udah gue ga diterima kerja dimana-mana, temen-temen disekitar gue mem-'beo' terus lah kalo dunia kerja itu gini-gitu (yang kebanyakan sih ngeluh, padahal kalau gue jadi dia, gue gaakan ngeluh! Karena gue tau gimana susahnya nyari kerja), dapat tekanan sana-sini buat kuliah lagi (dimana guenya gamau, please, kalau gue ada yang nemenin [baca: suami *blush*] gue mau da kuliah meski di Zimbabwe jugak!), dan saat gue down se-down down nya gitu gue ditinggal sama si penyemangat satu satunya (satu-satunya yang paling bisa bikin semangat lagi maksudnya, but it was for my own good so I got that goin' for me which is nice *muka Bill Murray*).

Tapi setelah ditelaah lagi *ceileh*, sebenarnya Tuhan cuma pengen menyadarkan gue bahwa hidup ini ga cuma mengenai kerja, harta, tahta, dan wanita (?) saja, ada satu hal yg jauh lebih penting dari dunia, yaitu akhirat gue nantinya. IH YA ALLAH SUBHANALLAH BANGET YA SI TRIA.

Ya intinya begitu lah, gue disadarkan kalau ibadah gue tuh masih kacau balau, kalau hidup gue masih awut-awutan, masih ga punya landasan yang tepat buat menjalani kehidupan dunia *ceileh*. Jadi mungkin (((mungkin))) Allah mau gue 'bener' dulu, sebelum gue di-'lepas' ke alam rimba *naoncenah*. Mungkin Allah mau gue buat appreciate little things dulu (yang biasanya gue took for granted), sebelum dikasih yang lebih lagi. Mungkin yaaa, yang jelas gue harus yakin dulu lah kalau rencanaNya itu adalah rencana terbaik, dan gue gausah sotoy-sotoy nge-judge sendiri dengan pemikiran gue yang sempit ini.

Imaan is being okay with never knowing why some things happen...because you trust in Allah's plan for your life.

Alhamdulillah yah~

Ini ceritanya tadi gue mau nulis sesuatu tentang koyo, eh tapi gajadi soalnya pemahaman tentang capsaicin dan metil salisilat nya belum lengkap. Terus mau nulis tentang sunnah Rasulullah SAW, tapi tulisannya malah ngalir kesini. Yasudahlahya~

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Shooting Star

The thing I love about Owl City is their (or should I address it as his, Adam Young?) songs could always cheer me up. Like the one which is being the soundtrack of Wreck It Ralph with the lyrics "Don't close your eyes cause your future's ready to shine, it's just a matter of time till we learn how to fly~", and this one.

I think I've heard this song before, but I didn't think it attracted me that much. It was good, but that's it. But this morning, I watched Escape from The Planet Earth in HBO due to my boredom (period's cramp sucks you know), and this song was played at the end of the film. And that's when I found this song as an amazing and motivational song (ok, maybe it's too much).

This song basically says that in the you should always try your hardest, even though sometimes it can be difficult, and there will be times when hope seems lost, but you will succeed. What seems like the darkest hour can be your greatest opportunity to show just how bright you can shine

But that's deep, right?

Sometimes, just sometimes, people need someone or something to motivate them. For me, it could be a good quote or a good song, or a hug. And no other song better than Owl City's for that ღ ღ

An Open Letter To My Ex: How A Best Friend Becomes A Stranger

Sometimes breaking up isn’t too difficult. Sometimes you know the person is entirely wrong for you. You know that it would never work because you never achieved that level of intimacy necessary to build a lasting relationship. You never became best friends.

Then there are times when breaking up is the most difficult thing in the world, not just because you know that you are breaking your lover’s heart – and your own while you’re at it – but because you are willfully choosing to lose your best friend.

There is nothing worse than choosing to let go and move on when you know that your best friend will never be more than just that, a best friend. It’s a very difficult phenomenon to describe, which is why most go with the all-time favorite cliché: “I love you, but I’m not in love with you.”

The truth is, that is the best way to describe it: You love someone deeply and feel that you ought to be part of each others’ lives, but not in the capacity that you have been thus far. Unfortunately, not everyone can break up and stay friends. In fact, I’d say most couldn’t. That is why we lose our best friends. We lose the people who are most important to us and, let’s be honest, end up lost for a good moment afterwards ourselves.

With time, however, we learn to pick up the pieces and redefine our direction in life. Yet, not all of us completely move on. Some of us still hold on to that friendship even though it is long gone. Why? We do love them. We wish they could be part of our lives. But at the same time we understand that is impossible. So what else is there to do than to write them a letter we’ll never send?

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Hey there, stranger.

It’s been a very long time, which I’m sure you’re aware of. I’d like to say that it was your decision alone to keep this distance, but I think we both know it was for the best. I’d like to say that I’m glad you are well, but as we both know I have absolutely no idea how you are. The one thing that can definitely be said is that when we cut ties, we leave no strand behind, but slice right through until we no longer remember how to find each other. It’s amazing to think that once we were inseparable, the best of friends.

You knew me inside and out, and I, you. We were there for each other in the best of times and through the most difficult of times. We definitely managed to put each other through hell on occasion, but when support was needed the most, support was given. Until, of course, that final day. I sometimes find myself wondering why we couldn’t stay in touch. Would it be so bad if we got together for coffee from time to time? Or if we gave each other a ring to see how the other was doing?

Using the phone to make calls has become archaic, but surely we could send a text to wish each other a happy birthday? Or a happy New Year? I mean, we’ve been through so much. You are a part of my life and there is nothing I can do to ever change that.

You can’t be forgotten because forgetting you would be like forgetting myself — impossible. But then again, maybe you are right. Maybe we are better off as far apart as possible. We know we aren’t right for each other. We know it would never work, and we know the friendship we have — we had — created a bond that would make slipping back into romance too easy. It would make repeating the same mistakes too likely, repeating the same heartbreak certain. That’s what it really comes down to: It’s not my heart that I’m worried about, but yours. Breaking my own heart would be my responsibility to bear, but I can’t once again be responsible for breaking yours.

So all that I can do is wish you the best. Wish you a great, bright, loving future. Wish you to find the lover of your dreams and to create a lifetime of your fantasies. I wish for you to find a friend as great as me, but a much better partner. One who won’t drag you through the mud. One who you won’t feel the need to bury with guilt. I wish you all the best and although you will never read this, although we will never speak to each other again, and although you are out of my life forever, I wish you nothing short of happiness.

Never again to be yours,

Your Lost Best Friend

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Source: http://elitedaily.com/dating/sex/an-open-letter-to-my-ex-how-a-best-friend-becomes-a-stranger/